10.10.26 11:07 PM

I have a problem with my phone and I know it. There is so much I want to do with my free time and yet I find myself doomscrolling more and more each day. It is absolutely an addiction and maybe they were right, it is these damn phones.

Don't get me wrong I love social media when used in a healthy, fun, and community-bonding way. (One of my favorite things to do is make collages for my Instagram and take time to showcase what's going on in my life.) What's bad is the endless scrolling I do on several platforms. If I get bored of one I just close out of it and go to the next one. I hate it, but yet feel the urge to do it daily. I don't want to do that anymore. I love writing. I love reading. I love arts and crafts. I love music. I love movies. I love doing things. I want to do more with my free time. So I'm going to try and do that. I'm taking time out of my nights to do things for me that don't involve moving my thumb up and down on a handheld screen. Setting up this blog and following others has been a fun way for me to stay away from the mind-numbing scrolling. Reading about other people's lives really helps me feel not alone in this crazy world and get perspective on an environment outside of mine. 

I think I find comfort in the mindless task of swiping through apps on a phone. It's easy. No one is expecting me to do anything and it's a task that makes me look busy and not awkward. It's normal to be on your phone all the time. Right? Probably not, or at least it shouldn't be. 

Is technology really the root of my problem or is it just an easy solution to an already existing personal issue? It takes 0 effort to sink into the already existing urge to sit and do nothing and I make the choice to do so. My phone doesn't have a gun to my head and I'm free to do anything I please. I assume and hope I'm not alone in this sentiment. With technology being such an easy access thing I feel like it's so effortless to fall into the trap. 

Fun Fact: Rhesus Macaques are the most widely used non-human primate in research and experimentation. Dating even as far back as the 50s with Harry Harlow's cloth mother experiment. Harlow took baby Rhesus Macaques and gave them the choice of a cloth mother that provided nothing but physical comfort or

a sharp wire mother that provided food. It was discovered that the monkeys would much rather spend their time with the cloth mother even if she didn't provide food. Harlow then concluded that a mother and baby's bond are not reliant on the mother's ability to provide food, but instead it is more important for a mother to be comforting when it comes to the emotional welfare of the baby. 

10.9.26 1:34 AM

 Hello! 

I bet you're wondering why you're here. To be quite honest with you, I also don't exactly know why, but I hope we both stay. 

I guess to get into it, I wanted a creative outlet for experiencing life in my twenties going into my thirties. I'm currently 25, recently single from a 6 year long relationship, living by myself with 2 cats and a turtle, just trying my best to figure out who I am. I want this to be a safe space to have fun and make friends while also being creative and learning a new art form. 

I've always enjoyed writing, with my earliest memories of my love being in elementary school, writing short stories for friends to read. My favorite thing to write is poetry. I've been trying to get back into it recently because I stopped for a few years. Life, ya know? I'm hoping with this blog I'll not only get back to how I used to be with writing, but I'll get better at it too. 

Anyway... 

Hi! It's so nice to meet you! Thanks for taking time to check out my page! Please bear with me as I figure out how to run a blog. I'm not sure how often I will be uploading, so until next time, stay kind and keep going. :) 

Fun Fact: Grizzly bears do not hibernate. They instead go through something called "torpor" which is like hibernation, but instead of being asleep for a long period of time, they can wake up if needed. During their sleeping state, their heart rate can drop to as low as 8 beats per minute! Insane!